Was about to enjoy a good nights' sleep last night,

when i received this msg :

"Hey captain. Thanks uh. Today got training you didn't even tell me."

don't claim to forgive me for forgetting to send the relay msg

when u use SUCH a sarcastic tone to question me

also never did i put the blame entirely on u.

i just merely stated that if YOU could be so irresponsible

as to not come for training without telling even a SINGLE person abt it,

then to me...it would only be because u don't even care abt training

take last wed's training for instance, i DID relay the msg

but in the end, u STILL didn't turn up for training...

u didn't tell anyone abt it either.

i had to ask u! *think

also months before,u told me u wanted to quit cheer...

why? because u were sacred of chaang

scared of joining the competition.

i persuaded u NOT to quit but u still wanted to

so in the end i said ok...but please rmb to inform mdm lai & chaang

but u didn't...u kept dragging this matter

u didn't officially quit...u just didn't turn up for training

as i suppose u assumed u have quited.

then just weeks before the competition

u just suddenly appear and claim u want to join back the team

to go for competition? >.<

after which(competition),

u yet again did not turn up for training?

tell me this is NOT taking the team for granted...

don't claim to love the sport when u can do such a thing.

please don't accuse me of being irresponsible

when u urself are.

also it does hurt when u say i shouldn't be the captain

& that i shouldn't lead because of my attitude.

what attitude are u trying to imply?

yes i did say that 'if u didn't bother, why should i(captain) bother'

but can u understand why i said it?

how issit u want me to be responsible for UR attendance

when u urself aren't responsible for ur own attendance?

its is UR responsibility to tell me that u're not coming

for training in the first place

don't expect me to keep asking(which i did)

why u didn't turn up.

& if i were to really not care,

i would not have asked u(or anyone else)

why issit u're not here for training.

i would have just gave up on the team and leave

but the thing is i do care! i do care for the whole team

i do go around asking abt the absentees.

& i go for all trainings unless i have a reason for not going

and the reason is told to the other members of the team.

everyone else in the team did that too...

i just forgot u didn't know about training

since u weren't at friday's training.

& i already told u sorry

i didn't neglect u...

U neglected the team.

by the way, i'll like to add that

i'm sure all of the senior members can sense that

our team spirit is dying out.

but all of us still attend trainings...

we didn't give up

so don't use the lacking of team spirit as an excuse

for not wanting to come for training.

don't put the blame on the cliques in our team as well

cause team spirit can still be formed

with or without cliques inside the team

i suppose spectrum does have a few cliques as well

but yet...their team spirit is still strong

so why can't we be like them too?

......................................................................................................