hais as i was walking home...

many thoughts filled my mind,

what have i been doing so far?

what have i acchieved?

hais my answer to those questions were.....nothing

vivian can no longer be so happy like in the past,

she has become a puppet...acting out characters, she is meant to be...

hais why am i such a failure?

passed all my tests, i have not...

not even ONE!! =(

strong in maths & english...i no longer am

hais finding life meaningful...i no longer can

even in cheer, i was not able to perform well

i have actually endangered lifes of others & myself

hais i feel so distracted now...that i can't even concentrate when doing a stunt

thus, hurting myself =(((

feel like crying my heart out now...

but i can't...for my family has great expectations of me

i CANNOT let them see me breakdown...

i CANNOT let them know, i have failed them =(

is there anyway i can find back the meanings in my life?

is there anyone to help me? hais

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